In 2012 people were worried that the Mayan calendar was accurate and our world was going to end on 20 December.
Given that I am here writing this, clearly those people were wrong.
If you speak in the most literal, destruction of a world sense.
I propose that the world as we knew it, did end. I don’t claim to be the progenitor of this idea, someone suggested it to me sometime in 2013. Can’t remember who, or the context, or why we were discussing it. But I can remember that it made a lot of sense.
2013 was a year of tremendous professional turmoil and stress for me. I struggled to get through it. And I hoped that 2014 would bring better things.
On some levels it did, I didn’t have the same professional turmoil and stress.
I had different professional turmoil and stress.
Over the last four years some things have leveled off, last year I made the decision to quit my regular schedule and be an on-call therapist at the one job I had with a set weekly schedule. I’m now on-call at two places and I work there on the weekends in order to make space for the universe to fill my Monday through Friday, and now some Saturday mornings, at Optimum Health Therapeutic Massage in Westfield, MA. Switching to on-call helped my sanity on many levels - I work when I choose [generally when I know there is work to be had], I am not required to work nights, I am not required to work Thanksgiving or Christmas.
On the other hand, my finances are a complete Charlie Foxtrot. I declared bankruptcy early this year and it was discharged without a problem. I have paid a bunch of taxes for 2014 and 2015, new tires for my car, a full set of new brakes, quarterly taxes, and a hugely expensive computer repair - all in cash. Or on my American Express which survived the bankruptcy with a $1000 limit that I use for anything I can and pay off two to three times a month. Because Cash Back!
However, all of those things have pushed me to the brink. I’m not sure that enough will be coming in to cover all the bills for December, or at the latest January 1 when my next rent check is due.
And this is with my student loans [almost $100,000] and my parents [who bailed me out a few years ago] not getting paid.
And now my health insurance is increasing by 61%. I’m told it’s still a good price. Fine, it’s just more money than I have.
I am spinning my wheels hard to make more money to end up in the same position of not quite enough.
So, what does this have to do with the end of the world?
I know what I have been going through for the last four years. I have watched other people dealing with challenges in all forms. I have watched what is happening in the world. Most recently we have all experienced what is arguably the most contentious presidential election in US history, no matter what side you are on, it’s been ugly. I have seen 100, 500, 1000 year storms at least annually around the country, and the world. I have seen terrorist attacks becoming the norm. I have seen people doing things to others that I just cannot fathom.
20 December 12 clearly wasn’t the literal end of the world, we’re still here doing what we do, getting up every day, going to work, buying groceries, grabbing a margarita with friends, whatever.
But maybe 20 December 12 was the end of the world as we knew it. Maybe we are experiencing a cosmic shift. Maybe we need to take a look around at what we have become and make some changes.
Maybe the end of the world as we know it is the beginning of a world we can’t even imagine.