This morning something threw my day off. I got some stuff done regardless, but I was feeling blech.
The day moved slowly, or it moved quickly and I didn’t notice, I’m not sure. I ended up going out for a run later in the day than I anticipated, but it was a good run and I even got some stuff done during the run. Just over five miles later life was a little better.
When I got home I threw an extra shirt on and my jacket, grabbed my earmuffs and a small backpack with a few things and headed out to Big Y to pick up some grass fed ground beef.
The tweak of my day was sitting in my head and I wanted comfort. Read: chocolate, chips, ice cream.
I walked past Mama Cakes, this terrific cupcake place on Elm Street. They make tiny cupcakes that are super tasty.
Fortunately they were closed.
Rite Aid is next to Big Y and I passed it on the way in, so of course I went in. They have Russell Stover Vanilla Cream Eggs. I had one in my hand. I thought about it for a minute.
Then I put it back, I decided I could stop on the way home if I wanted to.
I went in to Big Y. The bakery is right next to the entrance I use. They have these super delicious two bite chocolate cupcakes - 12 to a pack.
I had a pack in my hand.
I was sane enough to look at the nutrition label where I saw that three cupcakes are 340 calories.
Given that I knew I would eat the entire package, I decided to put it back. I didn’t do the math (1360 calories) until just now, but even so, just seemed like a bit too much.
I picked up a cucumber and some brocolli and the beef that I wanted.
Then I walked over to the frozen foods section.
There is only one reason to go there.
I looked at the Talenti, I always hope they will have the Toasted Almond. But they don’t. I have to go to Guidos if I want that. And honestly, it wasn’t that good. But I have this thought pattern in my head that it’s super delicious.
Then I moved to check out the Ben & Jerry’s. I was nominally looking for one of the new Core flavors. They didn’t have it. But I looked at The Tonight Dough, another Core flavor, Pistachio Pistachio.
Then I contemplated the Talenti Belgian Chocolate.
But I’ve never tried that and I’m not going to trust my need to feel better or anesthetize myself to untried ice cream.
Since nothing yelled to me to bring it home I walked away from the refrigerated section.
And I moved to the seasonal candy area.
There might be Russell Stover Vanilla Cream Eggs.
But there were all kinds of other things - M&Ms, Peeps, jelly beans.
And the seasonal candy is right next the potato chips. I had a bag of Lay’s Classics in my hand. Then I looked at the Lay’s Cheesy Garlic Bread chips.
I looked at the Lay’s Cheesy Garlic Bread chips.
I may never have mentioned this here - those new flavors of Lay’s?
They disgust me.
But I seriously contemplated them.
I went through the check out and didn’t buy the Rocky Road Snickers.
I put the beef, brocolli, raw cheddar and cucumber into my backpack and headed out across the parking lot.
Toward the Rite Aid - it was the only way.
With great force of will, and thoughts of the pinaeapple and potatoes (read future french fries) waiting for me at home, I didn’t walk into Rite Aid - I headed diagonally across the parking lot, out onto the sidewalk and home.
I don’t feel particularly better than I did before.
I’m not psyched that I don’t have any chocolate in my house right now.
I’m pleased that I won’t wake up in a sugar coma tomorrow.
I’m glad that I realized I was reaching out for anesthesia and I didn’t give in.
Today is day six.
Tomorrow won’t be day one.