I wrote a couple of days ago about the Diet Bet I was involved in, $100 to lose 4% of my body weight in 28 days. I wasn’t sure I would make weight.
One of the comments, from someone I’m sure meant well, told me to learn from the mistakes of others - her DECADES of diet experience - and not ruin my metabolism with dieting and just end up gaining back all the weight, plus extra. I almost deleted it, to me it was a little preachy.
Read the post, it doesn’t actually talk about dieting - because I’m not dieting. It’s been a long time since I dieted.
Because I also have DECADES of experience with idiotic plans for cutting calories and losing weight, only to gain it back. This whole blog is about how I’ve struggled with food, how sugar has run my life, how I don’t know what my true weight is because I haven’t had a healthy relationship with food since before the age of eight, how I am learning - slowly but surely - how to let go of the sugar, choose whole, healthy foods, make the choices that serve my body.
That post spoke about how the possibility of losing $100 (which I sooo can’t afford to do at the moment) was a pretty good tool to help me be mindful and make better choices. I’ve been eating good meals that I prepare myself, which don’t involve processed food. I was going to get my go to food, the one that replaces sugar when I need a treat - Mary’s Gone Crackers with brie. I thought about it briefly and then I got mindful and didn’t do it. I tend to eat at least half the brie in a sitting, not exactly optimal behavior.
Here’s a typical day: get up and bike to the lake where I swim and bike home, make breakfast - vegetable juice that I made, almond milk, banana, chocolate protein powder, chia seeds and turmeric, lunch is a two egg omelette with spinach and diced onion, aged cheddar and hot salsa. Upon recommendation from friends I am also adding turmeric to the eggs. Dinner, at work, is chicken salad that I make and bring - rotisserie chicken with celery, onion, toasted almond slices and homemade vinaigrette. Dinner may be a salad at work - greens, shredded carrots, sprouts, organic raw cheddar, sunflower seeds, oil vinegar and brown rice. Turkey bacon and/or avocado if it's on the sandwich bar. Maybe some fruit - a couple of plums, a piece of cantaloupe, some cherries or some grapes. Maybe some nuts.
Not deprivation, just not having pointless foods that will add to my weight without nourishing my body.
Not diet, just learning to make healthy choices.
Not screwing up my metabolism (cause it’s probably done for anyway), but learning to feed hunger, not emotion.
Oh, BT dubs, I made the weight, I won the bet, I didn’t lose the $100.